Calm Certainty

For the past three months I've been quite ill. I've been exhausted, had a lot of trouble breathing, intermittent nausea and dizziness, diarrhea for months, new food sensitivities, trouble swallowing, and never getting a night's sleep where I don't wake up several times through the night. Then suddenly a month ago I had an episode of atrial fibrillation where for 3 hours my heart raced like I was running a marathon. All my blood work and tests comes back normal. I have been told that my nervous system is acting abnormally, with no known cause. Perhaps it is Light.

I decided that I had had enough of allopathic medicine and started eating organic foods, and taking supplements, just generally taking better care of my body. I have been feeling better lately, and suddenly broke off my relationship with my husband, whom I had realized for some time was not good for me, but I just couldn't end it.

I should be in a state of panic for I am fairly old and couldn't possibly start over, but I feel this sweet calm that the universe will take care of me. This time I will be all right. This time I will stay true to my heart and deep self.