Energy going out of my head
I'm curious to see if anybody else is having experiences similar to mine. I wrote about this before, but this time I want to give more details, because I would like some insight into exactly what is happening here, if anybody can help. It started when I was meditating in my car. My body started trembling, and for a moment I felt like I was going to have an orgasm. Then the energy went up my spine, and when it arrived at my head I felt paralyzed, and I couldn't catch my breath. At that point, I felt the most incredible feeling of ecstasy I have ever experienced. For several minutes, I was enraptured in a feeling of intense joy, and I knew that everything in the world is exactly as its supposed to be. I had the sense that all of our worries and doubts are trivial, and that the grand scheme of life is better than I had ever imagined. I felt drugged for the next two days, and I never wanted the feeling to go away.
Since then, I have felt a constant tingling in my forehead, the back of my head, and on my crown. When I meditate, I immediately feel energy moving up my spine and out of the top of my head. Then, after a while, I feel energy entering my body through the crown of my head and storing itself at the back of my head. It starts to tickle at the back of my head, and I consciously and semivoluntarily pump the energy from the back of my head down into my body. This entire process feels good, and I always feel rejuvenated afterward. These sensations are not subtle. They are overwhelming.
At one point, I started spontaneously doing thai chi movements. I have never done thai chi before, but I did it naturally and gracefully as if I have been doing it all my life. I had never even seen somebody do thai chi for more than a few seconds. It felt very good to do it.
I have been having very vivid dreams of flying and other spiritual dreams. I dreamed last night that I said, "I love satan." That scared me. I'm not a devil worshipper, and in fact I don't even believe in Satan. Other than that, my dreams have been wonderful. I recently dreamed that I flew out of my body and went to a place where there were other disembodied souls. It was amazing, and extremely vivid. I never wanted it to end.
I have a few questions:
I understand I must be going through a transformation, but I wonder how long it lasts. I has been going on for about nine months now. Will it last forever?
Am I correct in believing that the energy leaving my body is negative energy and the energy entering is spiritual energy?
I understand that there are a lot of people going through the same thing, but I have yet to meet anybody else. How many of us are there? Is everybody destined to become transformed? Why does it seem like business as usual for the rest of the world?
This transformation has made me much more easy going and less stressed. I trust more in the divine, and I appreciate more the magnificence of life and nature. I am devoted to leading a life of service to humanity, and I have been receiving insights into the purpose of life and why we are here.
I can't wait to see where this takes us. We are on a very exciting journey.