(Gold Beach, Oregon)
Last year was a wonderful year, positive and spiritually fulfilling. My health had the normal ups and downs. Nothing unusual. Then Dec. brought some changes that were puzzling. I had begun making plans to open a holistic healing center that would incorporate my spiritual work as well. Insomnia set in. Sleep would not come until 5/6 in the AM. It has continued to this day. Along with the sleepless nights I've experienced joint pain, some depression. The worst is the feeling of being "raw" to the actions and communications with others. After normal shopping or interaction with people, I am exhausted emotionally/physically. Watching TV becomes draining I feel so deeply the suffering of others. All I do now is hide in my apartment, trying desperately to fix whatever has gone wrong with me. What can I do? I pray/meditate, still counselor through e-mail. But there is so much more needed, so much more planned. What does God want from me?? I still feel supported and that I was on the right path. I must get well so I can do what I have come into this life to do. Please help me find my way back to my purpose.