Stuck between Two Places, Focused on one. Not able to go forward or stay behind. The Choice isn't Hard, but people make it seem like there is more too it, but there really isn't. My sisters will stay if I go, I will go but they stay, I can't do either till they all move forward.
Everyday is different, but always a welcoming sense of joy and hate, evens out by the end of the nights sleep. For now, just wait for a bigger wave to ride as you float among the passerbyers.