The Latest Test of My Faith
I recently went through a period of a year where I was unemployed. I took a break and secluded myself from the outside world during that year. It felt very peaceful and I was feeling a very strong connection to Spirit. But the bills were piling up and I had to eventually find another job...
So I recently started a new job (which I've already quit) and from the very beginning, there were not-so-nice people there who talked about me, gossiped, and made me feel extremely uncomfortable. I didn't discuss any spiritual stuff with them so I know that had nothing to do with it. Even the few people who were nice to me, I would catch them in lies alot and question their intentions for befriending me. But that wasn't the worst of it. There was actually a Shaman sorcerer with not-so-good intentions that worked there too. I felt like I was surrounded by non-trustworthy hurtful people that wanted to steal my energy or hurt me. It almost felt "evil" if you believe in that word. But I wonder why I was brought to a place that was so concentrated with this energy. I haven't felt like this in any situation in my entire life and I'm wondering if this is just a test of my faith? I ended up quitting and taking myself out of that environment, it was AWFUL. It might sound crazy, but some people even seemed like they weren't even really human. Almost as if they were emotionless and had blank looks in their eyes - their eyes just weren't "right". Am I being paranoid? Or is this something that's surfacing right now because of all the changes? I don't want to be around that anymore. Will this sort of thing follow me because of my higher vibration? I'm keeping the faith, but I'm still struggling. This was a slap in the face after I had spent the wonderful, peaceful year in seclusion. I'm not sure I want to go out into the world anymore if this is what I will have to look forward to. It feels like I'm in a movie and it's not real. Does anyone else feel like these darker beings with blank stares are surfacing more in their lives recently? And if so, how do you deal with it?
Lots of Love,